Dreams

Tuesday night
I died in my dream
I didn't wake up beforehand
Like I normally would
I plunged over the edge
And the dark water surrounded me
And filled my lungs
And I stopped breathing
And it was all darkness
I awoke with a heavy feeling on my chest
With a dark cloud around me
Gasping
When I came awake enough
To realise I was alive
The feeling of death and darkness
Was still so heavy and permeable
I padded on bare feet
To my baby's room
To listen to him breathe

Xander

(photo courtesy of Andrew)

I love
The way your tongue curls when you smile
The fact that you smile as you fall asleep
Your warm brown eyes
Your pouting bottom lip
The way you wrinkle your nose in disgust when I kiss you or intense
concentration when you're looking for a feed
The way your tiny hands hold on to me
Your serious little expressions
The beautiful noises you make when you are content
The way you completely relax as you fall asleep in my arms
Everything