Monster

Bloody hell! My right arrow button is missing! Oscar must have stolen it last time he was out and dropped it somewhere. I have no idea where it is, and the little monster is currently having a hissy fit in his cage because, I presume, I haven' t got him out yet. I'll go get him, hold on. There, now I have a cup of tea as well:)

Yesterday I got a call from the roster person at work at about 4.55, right before I was leaving, asking if I could start night shifts tomorrow night. Which is why I am here typing away. Yes a week of nights starting tonight, what a world of fun. Apparently when I'm working in ED and being ward call at the same time, the other doctor in ED is an SHO, no registrar to consult - sounds a bit scary to me.

Mmmm today I've been contemplating someone else's problem's.

Job's Experience (for S.S.)
Can't understand
And I doubt we ever will
What happened here
And how you are standing still

Job's experience
Unnecessary to repeat
Death of justice
Could have swept you off your feet

And I'm guessing
It'll be a long road back
From your despair
At a bitter world so black

No reason here
Echoing, your scream returned
Why why why why
Has He taken all you earned
____________________

I guess I should do some research on the hospital I have an interview with this afternoon. I shall go do dull things

CRAP

I just wrote a whole thing about how crap my computer is and how my bird is a little green monster then I accidently pressed a button and it's gone (or possibly published) and so I am starting again. Except I'm not writing the same crap.

Here is something I wrote at the beginning of the month:

DAILY BREAD
I am not the one
I never was
I can't help not seeing you
Everytime my eyes close

I see the stars
I see oceans
I see birds who speak my name
Describing freedom like a flame

I am wrong to be
Here where I am
I can barely sleep at night
Everytime my eyes close

I see them
My daily bread
People grabbing at my soul
Begging me to be made whole

I miss the stars and oceans too
I miss the birds that sang like you
I miss the flame I miss the way
I could always just walk away
**********************

Tim

shaking hands hold broken paper wings
so unsure of how to hold these things
and no words fix what words have broke
as the ashes make your throat choke

tears locked behind a frozen wall
and voices faint begin to try to call
call you back to edges of reason
as heart and mind combine to treason

virtual hugs cold and callous and dry
bring no warmth no matter how we try
your lost i'm lost as to what to do
i just want you to make it through