Waste

It is a waste of time
To see a void
And step up
To help
To pull someone out of the ditch
Because all that will happen
Is the crowd will see the empty ditch
And try to push you in there instead
Instead of hands that help
Instead of considering each other
All people do
Is hold onto grievances
That have nothing to do with you
And somehow make you responsible for them
And I should know better
I've been here
I've done this
I've had this realisation before
It's not worth it.



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Alone.

I am so surrounded
By the kind of love some people only dream of
But when these emotions sweep down on me
I am alone
So Alone

I hear cars drive past
I hear frogs singing
Insects noisy enough to drive anyone mad
But tonight I'm grateful for any crazy company

What gave you the right?
To give up all your pain?
And leave it at my feet
With all our words unsaid.

I will tell you now
I am so fucking angry
That you took your last breath
Before we finished all our conversations
Before we figured out
We could have made being sisters work



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Every Parent's Fear

Dear Sister
Still sometimes, the pit of my stomach bottoms out
And a wave comes over me
I am not immune
And I hold my children closer
And I pray that they will stay
Much longer on this earth than me
I pray that I will get to see them grow
And I think of you
And what we've all missed
And today I feel sick
For some reason I can't bring any of the good memories to the front
All I can see is you lying there
Still and empty
Every parent's fear