Good Day

Ahhh, the mood swings of a pregnant woman! Today is a good day. Ignore the angst behind the song, it's just a good day!

My Stale Heart

Look in the window
At my stale heart
Beating through the every day
Out of habit
Time flying past
Without me making sense
Or even noticing
The beauty around
Fly from one thing to the next
Never take time for introspect
Where does that leave me now?
Weary, weary, weary
From what?
From emptiness.

Down

Sometimes I just feel blue
No reason, my soul just feels totally blank

Anyway, ignore the slide show, and the bad quality sound, it's just the song I like and this was the best version I could find on youtube.

I'm Fading (by Jewel)

Not To Hurt You

I see you
Your hands are busy
Your heart is grey
You are unsure how you got to this place
And no one can help
For words from others
Will do nothing but harm

I want to wake you up
To say to you
Let go of of some of these things
Hold on to others
You do not love yourself
You pour out all you have
And have nothing left when you need it

You are loved so much
But you do not see it
Because you still feel unworthy
You cannot receive it
So you are like a bottomless well
All the love poured in
Does not fill you

Until you are a spring
And fill from within
All that is given
Will become but a bitter poison
And what you give
Rather then being refreshing and lifegiving
Will be tainted

I am staying silent
But I want to wrap you up in hope and warmth
And gently try to open your eyes
But it would be like a toddler
Trying to hold a butterfly
I don't have the skill to do it without crushing you
All I can do is pray