First cuddles

Daddy in theatre, 20 minutes of age:



Mummy in recovery, not long after:



Xander up on the ward a little later that morning:

Joshua Elliot

Today I became a mum to another beautiful boy. Here we use our close baby carrier for skin to skin.

I attempted a VBAC but ended after 12 hours of labour and 10cm dilated in another emergency LUSCS. Once again bub's head just pounded the pelvis but never got below spines. When my obstetrician opened me up my previous scar was paper thin and he could see right in, so the decision to cut was a good one. Basically I got a live baby and he got a live mummy - yay, good outcome. Xander seemed to like his new brother, although the real test will be when we bring him home.

Anyway, dizzy with fatigue as has had no sleep overnight.

And how do you smooth the way? When the sun is yet to rise?
You take your small little hands and you use them to pull my face close to yours
And you cuddle and snuggle
You whisper to me in the not yet light of predawn
You run your hands along my arm, you touch my cheek
And what can I do? I am undone